Tuesday, May 03, 2005
rencently..i dunno if im the onli 1. bt i shower so many times a day cos the moment i walk away frm my fan to go get sth.. i sure to sweat.. i went o check n ytd temp was 34 degree.. oh my.. think 1 day all of us will be barbeque..
anyway have any1 of u tried stoning at a place for continuous of 5 hr? w/o walking away, standing up..jus sit there.. stare blankly into the space and act as if u r the onli 1 there? i did.. n i realised that actually 5 hr pass so fast... i see the sky change from bright n sunny to dark.. however i tot thru a lot during the 5 hr and i realised how easily things change and also went thru/seen the reailty of life..
sometime it makes me v disappointed to know that my friends r nt by my side when i need them most.. do u have to hear me cry to come out acc me? do u have to come out onli when i say pls? do u have to acc me onli when i say im in need? if i have to do above those.. tt mean u dunno me. i msg bt no reply.. i cal bt u r busy or ur phone is off.. if it was suppose to be my last cal to u.. then it sure will make u regret for the rest of ur life.. cos u nv know wat wil happen next.. imagine u didnt reply me n when u decide to reply aft a few hr, n wat if, im gone. u wil nv get a chance to reply me
ANYMORE........... i don blame u for being busy.. or its always my own one sided affection towards u.. i see as my best friend bt.. u nv.. i dunno.. im jus disappointed...
i began to doubt my friends...
Friends suppose to help one another.. be there thru my darkest moment, be there to share my joy.. but..... maybe we all have a different defination of friends..
today all my close friends start work.. happy working then.. i be there when u all need help..
going driving later.. take care!!
loving it;;